Something Heavenly

It's time for healing, time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time to make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
All I can do is surrender

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Revaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow your will
or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is you want from me
I give everything I surrender...

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to to release all my held back tears

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly

Friends

I went to a reunion in Dallas with all my best friends from college this weekend.  I realized how extremely valuable and rare friendships like these exist.  There are those friends that are around for a season of your life and then those who are friends forever.  These girls are definitely eternal friends.  They are the friends that encourage and speak truth into my life. We were able to sit around and share stories of the past year, and it was amazing that through hearing of their victories and heartache it brought healing to my own situations.  Some of them are going through the exact same things and it is great to just sit there and have someone know exactly what you are feeling and be able to walk with you through it.  I am so glad to have amazing women of God surrounding me, to remind me of the gospel and encourage me when I fall short. I love seeing Christ shine through them. They definitely bring out the best in me.  They are my iron sharpeners!  Beside the hours and hours of great conversation, I am still laughing at some of the ridiculous things we did.  We didn’t have to sit around and remember the memories from college, we just took off and started making new memories!  I am free to be me with these girls! Dang, I’m blessed to have the friends I have, and I don’t think reunion 2010

can come fast enough!

My Life in 2009.

A preview of the craziness of my life in 2009! What a crazy year it has been.

World's Apart

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
"dull the nails that still remain"

More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago

So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide


take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
I am broken on my knees

Take my world apart

Hope Now

If everything comes down to love
Then just what am I afraid of?
When I call out Your name
Something inside awakes in my soul
How quickly I forget I'm Yours

Everything rides on hope now
Everything rides on faith somehow
When the world has broken me down
Your love sets me free

When my life is like a storm
Rising waters all I want is the shore
You say I'll be ok and
Make it through the rain
You are my shelter from the storm

You've become my hearts desire
I will sing Your praises higher
Cause Your love sets me free

I'm not my own
I've been carried by you all my life

Warrior King

There is a strong drift toward the hard theological left. some emergent types want to recast Jesus as a limp-wrist hippie in a dress with a lot of product in His hair, who drank decaf and made pithy zen statements about life while shopping for the perfect pair of shoes. In Revelation, Jesus is a prize fighter with a tattoo down His leg, a sword in His hand and the commitment to make someone bleed. that is a guy I can worship. I cannot worship the hippie, diaper, halo christ because I cannot worship a guy I can beat up. I fear some are becoming more cultural than christian, and without a big Jesus who has authority and hates sin as revealed in the bible, we will have less and less christians, and more and more confused, spiritually self-righteous blogger critics of christianity.' I love how Mark Driscoll says this.  It is becoming so true, because a lot of people have grown up in church and so we are use to hearing cliche sayings like "Jesus loves you" that we become numb to what that really means.  We think of God as loving and gracious and merciful and wonderful and this good sky fairy who runs a day care in the sky and has a bucket of suckers for everyone because we're all good people.  That is a lie...God looks down and hates sin. He says "you are my enemy and I will crush you" and we say that is deserved, just and right, and then God says "Because of Jesus I will love you and forgive you." What a miracle that is! We deserved this wrath and then Jesus loved us so much that he took it on himself.  He is a leader of the Army's, He is a Rebel, He is so different from the paintings of him petting Lambs.  He is so Holy and what he did on the cross is so incredible.  I just feel like I have barely even seen the beginning of what this looks like, but as I continue to study his word and find out more about him I am realizing that he is so much greater than I thought before!  He is completely Just and Righteous and completely loving and gracious all at the same time! He is the Lion and the Lamb.  I just can't get enough...and the great thing is there is always more to be had..He never runs out..He is infinate...

What do I know of Holy?

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?

What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life "its" name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?

What do I know of Holy?